I am not feeling the exercise this week. I know how bad this looks coming so soon on the heels of that "I like to run!" claptrap, but I just don't feel like it. I finally got both kids down for afternoon naps and usually, as soon as I'm sure they're asleep, I haul me and the laptop and the baby monitors down to the office for my blink-and-you'll-miss-it exercise session.
But today I think I'm going to heat myself up some lunch and watch one of the audio commentaries on the Mad Men DVD my fabulous husband bought me for Christmas.
I'd like to say at least I'm eating well this week, but I'm not really. I busted into the last bag of Christmas candy and could not help myself. I'd start to feel guilty and then I'd think, "But they're so SMALL! And they're DARK CHOCOLATE! That's practically GOOD FOR YOU!"
Eventually I threw it away. What was left anyway. And later that evening I contemplated GETTING IT OUT OF THE TRASH.
I think this has to do with being tired. I'm a lot more tired lately, and that's because we're working on putting Molly down earlier, which means she no longer sleeps through the night. I know. What is wrong with us? Are we stupid? It does sound counterintuitive, but I have this hope that she can go down at a reasonable bedtime AND sleep through. Eventually. I would actually prefer one or two night wakings to the baby who sleeps from midnight to noon. But it does mean I wake up tired, do breakfast and baths and naps and lunch tired. It means that by the time I get them both in bed, all I really want to do is go to bed myself.
That said, my darling daughter has fallen asleep on her own for both of her naps. So you know what? I'LL TAKE IT.
So this is just to say I'm not expecting much this week. I've got 6 pounds left and I should be feeling pretty good about that, but for some reason I'm feeling really fat. Feeling like I'm never going to lose these last pounds until I'm done breastfeeding. I'm tired. I want to eat all the chocolate. And that is all.
You only have six pounds left to go? Lady, you're not fat, you're my HERO.
Keep on fighting!
I am aiming for six pounds lost this week and you're my inspiration.
Posted by: Elizabeth | January 07, 2009 at 03:06 PM
Give yourself a couple days or what have you and get back at it. Despite your humility it is clear you have been working hard to accomplish this much. Keep going!
In other news, do the Mad Men commentaries talk about how they do the smoking scenes? It seems like there are a lot of smoking scenes and when you consider the outtakes, OMG, holy excessive smoking!
Posted by: Lindsay | January 07, 2009 at 05:15 PM
Soo...at the beginning I totally said I was in on this hot by thirty thing (even though I am already 30, wah!) and I haven't done a darn thing yet.
But! I saw on twitter that you said you might buy the 30 Day Shred, and my copy just arrived last night - I'm going to start tonight, so I think you should DO IT, too! Because I'm doing it, and I think everyone should do what I do. :)
Posted by: Julie | January 09, 2009 at 03:59 PM
I'm not sure what the 30 day shred DVD is...
And I admit that I haven't done much in the way of making my ass smaller, either. I think about it a lot. And I pathetically whimper about not having a treadmill, gym membership or TIME to exercise with 2 small children, 9 hours of college classes and 20 hour a week job.
But.... I am getting to the point of disgust. Complete and total disgust with my laziness and ass size.
Posted by: Jessica | January 10, 2009 at 07:48 PM