Results! Mostly favorable!
The part of me that doesn't deliver self-piteous freak outs on her blawg knew that everything would probably be fine and YES, everything was probably fine. Except for a 30% delay in gross motor movement, that is. Eh. Like the therapist said when she looked up from her calculator, "I'm not telling you anything you don't already know."
And seriously - these people (there were three of them, with varying degrees of authority, all friendly and cute and super enthusiastic) were around my kid for all of 45 minutes and within that time period they TOTALLY (and ACCURATELY) summed her up. "She's fine! She just has no REASON to move towards that toy! She has a whole slew of people to do it for her! Oh, and WHAT A HAPPY BABY!"
My diagnosis exactly.
During the little "these are our results" session I felt like I could choose to bash myself with guilt, ie: I never put her on her tummy! As soon as she fusses I tell Jack and Molly to give her a toy! I don't play with her as much as I should! OR I could choose to let it go. It was easy to choose the second option, precisely because the therapists were SO understanding and SO matter of fact about life with little kids. "Well of course you're not concentrating on floor time! YOU'RE BUSY!"
The Head Therapist also told me that what she sees in Emma is SO common in youngest children (especially when there are three or more siblings) and that was really helpful to hear. Besides birth order, she also talked a lot about personality and temperament and I gobbled all that stuff up. Basically everything I've thought about Emma is also what this therapist thinks, with the addition of a few extra things.
One extra thing was positive - apparently Emma knows and notices more than I realize. For example, I only know three or four baby signs and I do these with her often, especially "more" and "all done". But she NEVER signs them back to me and when I do them for her she just giggles like I'm an idiot. I wouldn't ever have said that she "recognizes" what I'm doing. The therapist made the sign for "more" and then said to me, "Oh, she totally knows it." I asked her how she could tell and she just said, "The flash of recognition in her eyes!" OH, OKAY THEN. (I guess this is what you learn when you evaluate hundreds of babies?)
One thing was negative - they used the words "confidence" and "frustration" a lot. Apparently they think EJ could use some confidence building when it comes to movement, and there are ways to help her around her frustration. So. I wasn't really aware of EITHER of those things? Possibly because I am on a busy schedule of doling out snacks?
After just sitting around handing her different toys, having her handle things like a crayon and a bell, having her look at a series of pictures, seeing how she interacts with me and (of course) Jack and Molly, they added up a bunch of stuff on their evaluation sheet, performed some weirdo calculation, and informed me that she was right on 10 months in every area except the Crawling Department. To qualify for their services, the child has to be at least 25% behind in one of their five evaluated areas and Emma was at a 30% delay - then they asked me when I'd like to schedule a therapist.
Soooo, yeah. It wasn't that I was AGAINST having an OT come and play with Emma. AT ALL. Or that I don't think she needs and/or could benefit from the extra attention and all that, but I DID ask them what would happen if I did nothing.
I asked the question to gauge how worried they were. I felt like if they rammed the program down my throat, I better do it. If they were nonchalant, I knew my own personal diagnosis and feelings were correct.
They were super nice about it (here I was, hoping I hadn't OFFENDED them, I AM IMPOSSIBLE) and they were basically like, "Oh, she'll start walking at some point and everything will be fine." The Head Therapist looked me right in the eye and said, "I would walk out of here NOT WORRIED AT ALL."
So then I told them I would like to have them call me to schedule an OT, probably twice a month.
WHY NOT? And that was their point as well, once they finished their "oh, we're not worried!" exclamations and started on the hard sell of their program. I think they thought maybe I felt too busy or had my hands too full - that's not it. I think I just wanted some confidence for myself, that this is okay either way, and maybe for the other times with the other kids when I did nothing instead of calling up a birth to three program. This is not a Red Alert Early Intervention situation. This is a Why Not, It Can't Hurt, It Can Only Help, Besides It Might Be Fun And Interesting situation. Also, my insurance covers it!
I really liked that Head Therapist. She just knew a LOT about what babies Typically Do and she had ways of telling you about that sounded completely objective and without the worry/stress/guilt element. Or maybe I just really appreciate people who know how to handle my delicate psyche.
Honestly, I REALLY haven't been a nutcase about this. I haven't had TIME to be a nutcase. I have NO FEAR that EJ will start moving at some point. I DO cop to being dramatic in this space, so my apologies.
Anyway, I'm interested to see how it goes. They already gave me a handful of ideas for new ways to "move" her, I guess that's how I'd put it. Ways to ARRANGE her? Or how to position myself when I play with her? Which I'm trying to do more of, by the way, with the big kids in VBS this week.
All right, this was tremendously boring. I promise to get back to just normal boring tomorrow. THANK YOU, INTERNET. YOU ARE SO NICE TO ME.