Can I just say how lovely you people are? Phillip feels so special ("I already got three comments on my post!") and I really appreciate the emails. Even my mom is all, "Aren't those internet people so NICE?"
Today has been a drag. D-R-A-G. I've pretty much been wide awake since 3:30 YESTERDAY morning blowing my way through contractions. Like this one. OW. But now all is well because we just got back from a regularly scheduled doctor's appointment where, after a most uncomfortable 'exam' (that's a pretty fancy word for what she did, I'd say) she told me I was at 4 cm, everything was thinned out and the baby's head was all the way down. Quoth my doctor, "You're going to have this baby tonight."
So NOW... we're back home. I am alternately elated at the idea of going to the hospital ASAP and getting pumped full of modern medicine and thrilled that I can stay home where I can eat ice cream and curse in peace. We'll be here for a while, but I have no qualms about heading over to the hospital sooner rather than later. I'm a little afraid of 5 cm to tell you the truth.
Phillip and I feel so much better. I didn't want to go to this appointment (and tried to get out of it) because I didn't want to endure a contraction in the 10 minute car ride to the clinic. I've been up all night (I saw E! True Hollywood Stories for both Saved By The Bell and That '70's Show) and I'm exhausted. Yesterday I went to Target and hung out at a friend's house, just biting my lip and holding my breath through contractions. But today... holy crap. And I was positive I'd go to this appointment only to hear that I was .037 cm and nowhere near actual labor, thereby confirming my big fat wussiness.
But! I do not feel like a big fat wuss! Am feeling like Superwoman!
Not really. I totally bawled when the doctor left the room because OHMYGOD. Someone is feeling a tiny bit overwhelmed. Tomorrow, if all goes well, I'll have a BABY. Who is allowing this? I don't know what to do with a baby. Anyway, all of that is to say: OBVIOUSLY I need all the prayers and THANK YOU.